You cannot fully know yourself through the thinking mind alone. In the depths of your soul you are subtle essence, difficult to grasp and always changing. When your conscious mind and your pure essence intersect, it is always a surprise. It can feel like a vast expansive opening where you feel the peace and joy of the moment in singular awareness.
To lure your essence into your conscious awareness, takes patience, solitude and compelling quiet. This aspect of your true self often surfaces when you are surrounded by natural beauty. In the forest, a garden, along the seashore, a lake, river or desert, there is an intoxicating perfume that entices the soul.
Be alone in nature, look at the sky, breathe in the energy of nature and your soul will emerge. If you cannot be outdoors in natural beauty, fresh flowers, a water fountain, a garden, the starry sky or the view outside of a window can also have the same effect. Wherever you are, just be. Give yourself time without any expectations. Be in the moment and whatever your experience is, accept it. Feel the beauty of nature, drink it in and absorb it into your mind, body and spirit.
Your soulful essence may only emerge for a scant moment. Then quickly submerge once again, to hide out underneath your thoughts and feelings. But it is there. You may feel it in a variety of ways. It can be a sudden awareness of your connectedness with all of life. You may become aware that everything is in divine order. Your worries, stress and fears may take flight and dissolve. The light of who you are, fills you. Maybe just for a slight small moment, you feel and know the power that resides within you.
If you are fortunate enough to experience your truth in this way. Stay in this awareness for as long as possible. It is a sacred and precious awareness that can be all too fleeting. Soon your soul seems to recede, but the clear awareness of its light will stay with you. Tuck it into your heart and keep it close. Even though you may no longer be consciously aware of this crystal clear emergence, it is still with you. Behind your thoughts and feelings and emotions, the pure you is present, observing, inspiring and offering love and wisdom.